Hi. I am Talesha Carter.
I am a wife and mama to two awesome kids and one fur baby. I am a firm believer in creating the life you desire, and I can often be found with my nose in a book learning new ways to improve. I love to go on adventures with my family and explore new places. When tough times come my way, I turn to God and energy healing and I always find my way. Life is meant to be enjoyed, not endured! It is my mission to uplift, strengthen and empower hearts.
I am an energy healer who practices as a Reiki Master and educator in Logan, Utah. My business, Foster Vitality was created to help women, like myself, release stress, anxiety, fear, anger and worthlessness to help them be the best they can be. I know from personal experiences that living with feelings like these can wreak havoc on relationships. And leave us feeling alone.
Nearly four years ago I brought home a beautiful baby girl. Miss C had soft curly brown hair, and squishy cheeks, and her eyes glowed. She had that wondrous fresh baby smell, and I couldn’t believe she was mine. But I had a secret that took me years to admit. Have you ever kept something buried deep within you out of fear and shame of what others may think of you?
I didn’t dare speak a word. On some levels I don’t think I understood the depth of my anguish. My mind has this great default button called the subconscious, and I know it blocked out many of the emotions I felt so that I didn’t become a complete shut-in. My secret was that I did not feel those ooey gooey “you’re my child” connection feelings. I have a son who is a couple years older than Miss C. Because of him I knew how I was supposed to feel, and I didn’t.
I felt alone, disconnected, and fearful that something was wrong with me. From the outside my life was what would be described as a cookie cutter life. I had two beautiful children, a husband that had a great job that allowed me to stay home, we had a cozy apartment and lots of family nearby. But, these things didn’t change how I felt. I was not connecting to Miss C. I felt I didn’t know how to take care of her. I felt I was not a good mom to her. I was spinning in a world of grief, depression, anxiety, and fear. My sweet baby would cry and I wanted to help her but unlike with her brother I didn’t know what she needed, and the only thing that worked was her daddy.
Looking back on that time with healthy eyes, I can recognize the depression for what it was. However, in the moment I thought I was a failure a failure to myself and my Miss C. Do you have feelings similar to this? Do you feel like something is broken inside of you? I feel your pain, and I know the destruction you’re battling. You’re not alone. I have hope for you!
I began searching online for classes, or groups. Something that I could “busy” myself with. One particularly rough afternoon I was searching our community calendar. My soul jumped. I found an introduction to energy work course and although I had no idea what it was, I signed myself up.
I like to refer to this time as my journey, because it was the time I went from a depressed shell of a person to a person who helps others heal from their emotional and physical pain.
That is right – heal.
There is healing, and it doesn’t require you to be drugged up on medication and miss out on more connecting opportunities with your child.
As I mentioned above, I am a Reiki Master. This is a modality of energy healing. With Reiki I am able to help you relax and tap into your life force energy. What does this mean? We are energetic beings. This energy that flows through you and I is referred to as life force energy. When you become stressed, worried, or sick, this energy flows at a slower rate. Likewise when you are happy, fulfilled, and love yourself, this energy is much higher.
If you feel like you are not connecting with your child, that you’re alone, anxious, fearful or consumed with guilt your life force energy is going to be flowing at a slower rate. There is no shame in having these feelings. It means you’re a living, breathing person. There is hope. Reiki can help you.
Reiki heals by charging the affected body parts with positive energy, allowing your body to heal the way that it was originally designed to. It raises your vibratory level. This causes the negative emotions to break apart and fall away. Reiki then clears, heals, and straightens energy pathways, which allows the life force energy to flow in a natural way.
You can receive the benefits of Reiki. It will relax you, open new energy pathways, open your heart and mind, release negative emotions, and help you find clarity, peace, and acceptance. The greatest benefit that I have felt and seen from receiving regular Reiki treatments is the ability to love myself and others with fewer judgments.
Practice today. Hold one hand over your heart. Feel your heartbeat. Feel your lungs increase with air. Feel them lower as you exhale. Think about the stress you feel in your heart, the worries and burdens you’re holding onto. Think, or say the words, “I give myself permission to release these feelings into my hands.” Take a deep breath in and on your exhale take your hand off your heart and shake it out while picturing those feelings leaving your hands.
This feeling of release, feeling like you’re lighter, this is only a fraction of what you will feel with an entire Reiki session. Healing is possible. You do not need to put up with those nasty thoughts and feelings. You can connect to your child. You can feel happy, and you can feel intense love!
For more information about Reiki, what it is, how it works, and who can benefit from a session, I invite you to go to my website, fostervitality.com, and contact me with any questions.
With love,
Talesha